Tis' the season to be jolly fa lalalalala!...Its true its my favourite time of the year. I wish at times that it would snow where I live.. For a Christmas without snow is incomplete. Christmas is about sharing and giving , spending time with family and loved ones, sharing gifts and joy and yet however for the poor it may be no different than any other time of the year or may be it could even be worse. I'm blessed with comforts and for that I am grateful. I am thankful for all that I have and all that I shall receive. We however are never satisfied with what we have, even in our happiest moments sometimes we think that it could be better.Yes its true I have all the basics covered, still my selfish heart yearns for more.Christmases past and present have at times haunted my mind. Pouring thoughts through it along with cookies and wine.I see flashes of what has been and see images of what is.. and somewhere along the way I can see that somethings a miss. Its true I love Christmas , but its also the time that my heart misses everything that its lost in Christmas past. Christmas present always seems bleaker for I count the losses since Christmas Past. What have I lost? I wonder aloud since those Christmases of the past.As I recall the moments, I see those visions and my present is stirred and shaken. I wish for a Juggernaut who would pound the walls with his massive fists, someone who would let me ride on his massive shoulders and help me crash into the walls built up within my mind. I pray for a Juggernaut who would stop at nothing to shield me from whatever I may see. I seek a juggernaut , who when everytime I fall would pick me up and say ' come on ..get up..ride on my shoulders I'll take you back and forth'. I need that unstoppable juggernaut to spare my wounds.As I jump of his back into my present I think about everything that I saw...everything I have lost and also everything i have gained -----------------' Wheeeeeeeeezzze, Merry Christmas son',Are reindeer real?, Is that Santa?,Rudolf the red nose reindeer had a very shiny nose, And this is Dodo, Can you dance?, it's gonna be a black Christmas when he gets here..hahaha, ah mistletoe' we have to now..u know..no way around it, I'm gna ask her out two days after Christmas, Happy b'day Christ,Ur goin for mass dressed like that, have some Christmas cake, I'm hoping for a miracle,This Christmas all I really want is T......., I love Christmas cartoons, wish i knew more carols, hi I'M ABHI, Merry Christmas baby I miss you, I love you, Omg ur never gonna believe what happened,I wanna wear the Santa hat now,Where is she?..where where WHERE?'...and suddenly he grabs me hard. Stop it he says.Look at where u are. This is now. That was then . Just stop boomed his voice. Ur right I said, I'm going to concentrate on now...I saw everything I had and may be its gone now, but the things I still have I want them to last...and I'm ready to discover whatever lies ahead. Good boy!! said the juggernaut...Now onto the next run....Hop on kid!..Where to? I ask keeping my distance from him as he punches down yet another wall...a bright light blinding me temporarily shot through..and he says 'The Future'..............................................
Beginning.
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